We all have lofty goals when we graduate college, get married, start a new great job, etc. Sometimes the goals are really ambitious and we work our tails off to reach them. Other times it feels like we can't reach them no matter what. Other times we seem to forget what the goals even are! That last one has been me lately. It has been a hard year with so many emotions from elation to devastation. I don't transition very well and it seems that is what we have done this year. Actually I take that back, I transition beautifully. I am a pillar of strength running on God and adrenaline through the throes of it. But me-I have a hard time with the slow times that follow transition. I knew this..I suspected it could happen...but I have been hit a little bit hard!
I have been thinking about my goals. What are we doing this year? We are supposed to be learning the coffee business. If that cafe would ever get open, maybe we could do just that. This is supposed to be a rebuilding year, too. Rebuilding our faith, calling, marriage, family, and even laughter. So why my goals feel so far away right now? I want to see God and learn through all this. I want to come out on the other side with the blessing of knowing God more and be able to use these hard times. But really....I just want on the other side!
2 comments:
I know how you feel, but the lessons are in the process! (I know you know that, too, but thought you might need a reminder.) Hugs.
Karen.
Again I just 'happened' upon your blog, just in time for a new post. We are stranded out West, you can read about it on my blog.
We are recently retired. Life opens new doors, opportunities, AND questions. Today's verse for me (I share it with you FWIW): Ps. 139:16 "All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
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